Jou Woorde

 my woorde aan jou, ek weet is vieslik,

ek weet nie hoekom ek nie net kan stil bly nie,

hoekom moet ek jou terug seer maak,

hoekom moet ek jou smeek vir menslikheid,

hoekom kan jy nie die seer sien wat jy doen nie,

hoekom kan jy nie onthou wat jy gedoen of gese het nie,

hoekom moet ek altyd die mal een wees.

ek het so groot drome vir ons, maar

ek hoor jou woorde wat seer moet maak,

ja dit maak moer seer maar, ek was ook verkeerd,

dalk soek ek meer aandag, of dalk soek ek jou net,

om wakker te skrik en regtig te sien wat het jy.

ek vra ook hoekom as dit so goed gegaan het,

hoekom nou weer hierdie groot berg of ek voel,

ek is op n bootjie in die middle van die dam,

ek dink aan n ou vriend van n sklidery teen sy muur gehad het,

hy het altyd gese soek en bly soek tot jy die regte een saam 

jou in die bootjie te kry, want een roei en ander een staan droog 

en veilig, gaan jy nie ver kom nie,

ek voel nou amper ek kan nie sonder jou voorentoe beweeg nie,

ek soek jou in my bootjie, nie net oor aardse goed nie,

maar ook sonder jou mooi of lelike woorde , ek kort jou,

hoekom dan net nie meer die ander mense sien as negatiewe weses nie,

is ek dalk die verkeerde een,

hoekom moet ek weer twyfel in myself,

as ek mos die berg sien tussen ons net omdat jy gaan kuier het,

jy kort dalk die dronk praatjies, maar dan baklei ons so baie,

is dit omdat ek jaloers is dat jy so lekker gekuier het tot so laat,

of is dit as jy hier kom is jy so galbitter en dit werk nie vir my nie,

hoekom het ek die punt bereik wat jou woorde nie meer seer maak nie,

hoekom voel dit as jy aan my vat ek moet maar net gee,

hoekom voel dit of ek weer alleen in my bootjie is.

Today's mood Eina

Ek haat jou, jy word te maklik beinvloed, maar suip sal jy suip.

Jy kom vanaand weer vanaf een van jou ouers af. Dan is daar niks slegter as ek, op die aarde nie.

Ek is dankbaar vir my ouers

Maar jou ma is galbitter en n wyn vlieg en jou pa

Is ook n suip gat en n negatiewe drol.

Ek moet weer gaan werk soek is jou woorde aan my.

Ek vloek jou en jou ouers ek sal nie.

Ek het 5 jaar gesorg dat ons elke maand kos het in die huis

Ek het mooi na jou gekyk ou msamma se seuntjie, dis maar net jou beurt

Jy gaan jou keuses in die lewe moet maak of ons groei of jy bly

agter saam jou mense wat jy, pa en ma noem.

Ek wil meer in die lewe he as wat jy my op die stadium kan bied

Of jy groei saam of jy bly agter saam daai ouers van jou!!!!

Ek gaan nie dat hul my groei of drome breuk nie,

Ek is baie sterker as jy en ek het die regte ondersteuning

Ek is moeg om te baklei dat jy vir jouself sal baklei en op te staan en te moet kyk

Wat kan eintlik nog kan wees, my woorde aan jou raak min,

Ek is moeg om jou te probeer laat glo in ons 

Ek kan jou nie dra en my dra nie en ek het jou gese,  5jaar

meer van myself weggegee en ek gaan  my drome volg, kom wat wil,

jy probeer nie eers om n beter man te word nie, jy moet groot word.

Ek het jou probeer n beter mens maak,

Net as ek jou wen dan is hul in die prentjie

Altyd, ons sal nooit kan groei nie,

Ek wil jou nie los nie, ek sal jou maar dra

Terwyl ek maar moet as jy jou ouers na nog n jaar

Of na n paar jaar kies dan is dit maar so want

Ons verdien dit om ook as n family te moet groei

As jy aan die verkeerde kant van ons draad bly staan,

Gaan jy agter bly. Was my pa se woorde aan my.

Ek wens jy kon my ouers se woorde hoor en inneem.

Dit help nie eers hul prober nie,

Jy sit liewers en bog praat en jouself verdrink,

Saam een van jou ouers.

Die ou keuses wat jy lank terug gemaak het,

Dis verby hou op luister na dronk praatjies,

Begin die mens wees wat ons verdien om te he,

Wil nie he jy moet agter bly nie, wil he ons moet saam groei.

Ek glo aan ons, hoekom kan jy nie….

 Mother Nature

People are taking images of all the stunning wildlife on earth.

There is a lot to take care of, simply from the view of a photographer, in your case you can spend time with nature truly, (even in your garden) you just truly have to enjoy the beauty and the peace.

If we don`t take care of mother nature, she goes to continue to exist all of us, that`s the element humans are killing mum nature and others attempt to reveal to you with their images that if it`s long gone it`s long gone.

If we hold on to killing for survival, then we'll lose. However, mother nature could be more secure when we're long gone if there weren`t any humans left to damage her.

I recognize some humans kill most straightforwardly for survival, however, the land we're taking for ourselves, mom nature is fed-up with us, for simply taking down the stunning to make an area for something that isn`t nature.

Mother nature always begins combating back.

Every time an herbal catastrophe moves is only a warning, now no longer a small one a large one due to the fact each time, she fights back then many humans are killed, she doesn`t need humans to die truly it's miles simply her manner of having extra space.

We are on the planet no longer simply due to the fact all of us have a purpose. We all have that voice that tells us, we deserve higher or that this existence isn`t for us. Just start to dream and simply begin with that one little dream and dream approximately nonviolent fuller planet earth however most significantly mother nature.

I could have cherished staying withinside the days there weren`t any excessive homes or mine holes beginning on land withinside the sea simply mom nature and we the humans simply peacefully.

That`s the element we took over we're destroying mom nature, and in case you truly take notes mom nature is constantly going to combat back, she changed into created first and that is she.

 

We all love or hate our existence however she and Our Creator aren't glad for us humans. I am still trying to understand how we truly going to assist her. But this is the element we won`t have the ability to... 

Ghost writer

 I got a written letter today.

  Hi Judy

It’s me Catherine I am living here since the moment the house was built. I grew up here, became a woman here, lived here looking after my mother here, and lived with my aggressive husband and four children, every one of them moved away, just leaving me here with the old man.

 My life wasn’t happy or peaceful no it was hard but I survive four children and a husband.

 I lived my last years and died in my sleep in this house you are calling home now.

This is my house and ever since you and your son moved in it became a home.

I heard about the changes you still want to make to the house and I love every single one of them.  I like the changes you’re making so far; I like it.

I know I was in the beginning not very welcoming and after every change you did, I got angry I know I was putting the man of the house through a lot with the moods I gave you.

But I found peace after I saw you are just making it homier and more comfortable.

Thank you for taking care of the man from the house, I wish you would stop completely fighting,

But no that is never able to happen, don’t listen to somebody that says there never has been an argument with their partner.

But back to the house just thank you and your son for completing the homey feeling.

Thank you for bringing life to the garden and house.

Take care Judy and your great son, and don’t stop being the woman that he needs, the owner.

 

With all my love

Catherine

Bad Luck

I had a a very close encounter today , but it started yesterday,

         on Facebook I got a private message from my mother,

that its first thing that was strange, but okay I went along,

then I had to send my bank details and photo of my ID,

yes, I didn't think, I didn't know, something told me to be careful,

 I am 37 years of age,  I must have

learned to listen to my dad by now,

but not stupid me but at least I didn't pay the amount because,

when I talked to my mother about that she didn't know anything,

luckily she and me didn't make a mistake,

this is the first time that they almost,

caught me, now I will be more careful hopefully,

either ways I am the stupid's person I know.

Luckily I didn't give to much, but still think its to much.

Thanks mum for trying to help me even if you didn't have

a clue what is going on.

You're the best

Love you

I already knew what I am going to do with the money,

that we could have won if it wasn't a blerrie scam,

but that is why the world is the way it is,

every body wants to make fast cash,

that's why all over the world,  people are in jail,

for scamming and smuggling and worst things,

the thing is they get caught,

but the next person is going to be more clever ,

sneakier that's life and there will always be people,

who is going to hope it work and what isn't fair,

they get their  money and don't give a rats ass,

if that poor people are going to be okay?

Giving you there last hope,

you don't care even if you took something,

that wasn't yours,

 now you can

buy anything from the money you stole,

don't wonder why when shit strikes you,

I am a big believer in:

Karma is going to catch up with you.

ya ya reality is a bitch also.

 

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My Pride and Joy!!

 

My Dear Son

 

I am blest to have you for 12years now,

I wish I can give you everything,

Your little heart desire,

But you got me for a mum,

With all my love I am trying.

I am sorry if I can’t give you everything,

At this moment your 12years,

Of a little life wasn’t very fun,

But I promise you,

I am going to make a difference in your life,

I think you deserve much more,

You’re a great loving human being,

Fine you are not comfortable in your body now,

But it will happen then you will love yourself.

But then your still young my beauty,

I can see you in my imagination,

How a beautiful, strong independent person you are going to be,

Thank you for being mine.

I want to talk about me!

I am afraid, I have this big dream and,

 I know I must be patient and,

 I know I am covered form my expenses, but not for long enough.

This is the biggest step I ever took in my 37years,

okay not my first but my biggest one in my life now,

I am blerrie terrifying because I am scared what about the rest of the year.

Go back to the safe places again?

Even if it means you're dying inside.

This can't be my life.!

All I can think is to ask:

Univers please let me a hand.

Sad

 I am angry today.

a tiger got out,

not her fault, someone cut the fence,

she didn't killed anybody,

yes, somebody got a scared, but he wants even bitten.

She killed a small dog but maybe he was attacking her,

self-defense, it's in all of us.

They could just have dart her and took her home, 

not the wild, her life was bad, because she couldn't even,

been born free.

But no, they shoot her dead.

Didn't lived a normal life and just like that,

the tiger's life was over and that was that.

Nobody gives really a damn.

Rest in peace dear tiger,

 I am sorry you didn't have,

a normal tiger life!!

ANNOY

 

You think you can annoy me,

You don’t, I just feel sorry for you,

I understand you feel insecure,

But stop making a fool out of yourself,

mine won’t cheat on me,

Sorry, that you and your husband,

 don’t have the same connection,

like me and my partner have for each other,

but if you realise, this is your man till death,

maybe then would you stop trying,

to get someone else’s man,

realize one more thing,

 I can make my partner happy,

I HAVE HOPE EVRYDAY,

What do you have?

Why can’t you keep yours happy?

PEACE

 

I am sitting here on the porch,

Coffee in one hand, smoke in the other,

Looking at the garden, it’s just beautiful,

Birds are drinking water from the dog’s bowl,

The basset is lying at my feet in the shades,

I am alone with my thoughts,

It’s scary, but just look at the peacefulness around you,

Take a deep breath and just enjoy, the peace you are feeling now.

If you get the peace, answers will appear.

 

WHAT IF?

 

I am living my dream live,

But what if it won’t last longer than three or four months,

What if I am living in my own imagination,

What if all the things I am seeing is just an illusion,

What if I don’t have what it got,

What if nothing happens what I saw in my mind,

What if, what if, what if?

I know of people who wants me to fail,

But what if I can prove to myself and them,

I am also something amusing!!!

LONELY OR NOT

 

 Don’t know if I want to be lonely or not,

I don’t like people, I love my dogs,

Maybe I just need a few people to talk to,

Not a lot of people, they make me nervous,

I love being at home, in the garden

With the dogs and the green, green grass, and the flowers

Then the big old palm tree,

Standing tall and green looking out for me,

This is my piece, what are yours?

My spirit

 This is the Spirit of Me,

The First time I've ever felt free,

This where I will come to show the real me,

So please feel free to join....